What She Said

Let us start with what she did not say
She did not say:
Abandon me
I am broken
I have the ability to become stone
My eyes will reflect everything
About me you will never know
I will betray you on more twilights than you deserve
You will discover I am not the woman you thought I was
For you have found a way to strangle her
Stripping her spirit like a mutiny in the night
This image of pure and perfection
Of yours and happily ever after
This deep-rooted pedestal
This pluck of beauty and magic and human
We are both damaged now
Dancing on the hollow graves of our yesterdays
But you will only endure one side to this story
And believe what you need to justify
That which has blinded you for so long
You will regret every moment you contemplated
Leaving her behind
But you will leave her behind
Slowly detaching yourself from the memory
Of ever committing to love like this
You will replay your life in reverse from present to past tense
In attempts to retrace the position of the trapped door
The hologram, the imaginary friends, the scent of another woman
That led you down the path of doubting your heart again and again
The ONE thing you could have trusted amidst the
Illusions of immaculate confessions and conversations
So let us continue with one of them
With what she did say
She said:
I am leaving you
I am finding strength from the parts of myself
That you have neglected
I have the ability to become stone
But will choose to remain a woman
I will cry when I need to cry
I will never contemplate suicide
I will breathe
I will write
I will balance dancing eating sleeping
i will get up in the morning
I will avoid wasting days
I will find a way to revive the woman I loved before I loved you
This image of pure and perfection
Of yours and happily ever after
This deep-rooted pedestal
This pluck of beauty and magic and human
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